The Notebook..my notebook? *sigh*

It's 2.25am-Saturday morning and I just got done watching "The Notebook".I've watched this show a couple of times now but still...I find it very sweet and meaningful in a way..I guess I'll never get bored of it.Watched the beginning with Karen cos' she was the one who wanted me to download the movie..but guess what? She fell asleep..and told me.."Kerry ah..cannot tahan anymore..must sleep"..Ah! Party pooper!!The movie clearly shows how much wonders LOVE can do to two people, no matter what happens...Some of you may call it..CHICKFLICK but AAh....just like a fairytale!!--boat rides,sunrise,sunset..yadee yadee yadaaa...
Those of you who have not seen this movie...should just drop by a DVD stall and grab it..I'm tellin` ya..no regrets...Who knows, might be "Your Notebook" next time*winks*-only RM4 anyways...ish!

It got me thinkin`...does it really matter if LOVE was real?Or does it not?I don't know..sometimes I just think too much...but its good tho...stimulates my mind...At least I think! ha ha ha!

I was talking to a friend back in the States 'bout her wedding that will be coming up this November. I realised that her wedding is just around the corner so I decided to message her on MSN to tell her CONGRATSand to see how's the preparation goin`.. "SHE" is a pretty close friend by the way, from the same uni..but I better not mention her name.
And so..we were chatting and chatting then she asked me what I thought about her fiance(also from the same uni). I told her that he's a very nice person(that I know of) and that he loves her so much.She was quiet for a lil while so I nudged her and asked her what's happening and if she is having doubts bout the wedding. Without hesitation, she said YES.I was pretty shocked when I heard that but still...I was reading what she was writing...
She said that she's been likin` this other guy for more than 3 years even til this very day but he was attached.So she decided to move on...but her heart remains knowing that it is impossible to be with him.So, she dated this fiance of hers for a year..no doubt she loves him...vice versa..blablabla...and..they are engaged! Good news....!but on the other hand SAD!
As soon as she got engaged, she got to know that the guy that she's been likin`all along is SINGLE!..ah...bad break up with the gf who cheated on him..all that crap...whatever! Anyhow..she talked to him on MSN..like usual...but this time she thought she should just let her feelings out for once and for all. She did..and to her surprise..the guy had a crush on her a long time ago...but never did anything as HE WAS ATTACHED!But they've spent quality time together...like lil lunch outs,writing in the newsroom,going out for stories and even parties.They told each other.."IF ONLY WE COULD TURN BACK TIME"...*sigh*.....I guess if only they could turn back the hands of time...things will be way different now.They'd be much happier with each other...and who knows? Start a family..have babies together..ha ha ha!
Sometimes I just wonder...Is LOVE?BEING IN LOVE?BEING LOVED or TO LOVE that hard?Sometimes you just regret not telling the person you like, or rather love that you actually have feelings for them because you're just afraid of rejection or simply because you can't do it!Low self esteem?No confidence? yea..whatever!I've told many of my friends that if they really love someone, then they should take the stand..go up to the person and be frank with them.But honestly, I can't do that myself. It takes lotsa courage!!But it is clear that it'll be the biggest regret of my life! :( Well...life's fulla` WHAT IF's and IF ONLY's.....and IF ONLY I WERE TO HAVE THE GUTS........the story goes on....ha ha ha!!!! X-FILES!
I know I'm talking crap..but I do wish my friend the best of luck in her marriage and do hope that she has made the right decision. :)...
YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE....LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST AND ACHIEVE WHAT YOU'VE AIMED FOR.LIVE LIFE WITH NO REGRETS!
...WELL..I guess there are some things in life that I have to deal with too before it's TOO late....I started it....I'll end it.....good..... :)

Bloggin` off for now---THE EVER SO CONFUSED KERRY CHAN!